Not the, “Yeah, stupid, cause it’s winter time,” cold.
It’s that, “Someone forgot to turn up the heat last night,” type of cold.
As I made my way down to the thermostat to confirm what I already knew, I moved the switch to turn up the heat.
The moment I finished doing so, my stomach started growling.
“Hmm…,” I thought. “Let me see what I have in this place to eat. Some eggs, potatoes and toast sound wicked right now.”
“But I probably shouldn’t because it’s 4:30 a.m. I’ll just make some tea and eat some of these soda crackers.”
“Wait…What’s the date? It’s the first of a new month, isn’t it?”
“Shoot. Guess I’m not eating anytime soon.”
“Why did I choose to fast again?”
“Be disciplined, Akeem, be disciplined.”
What does it mean to be disciplined?
The Merriam Webster dictionary defines discipline as the following: control gained by enforcing obedience or order.
That sounds very military esque. Let’s not use that definition.
Let’s use some examples.
I started fasting in September. I usually fast from the 1stto the 5thof each month. The time of my fast depends on what time I wake up. But I always fast for at least 12 hours.
Example: If I wake up at 4:30 a.m., I fast until at least 4:30pm. However, I recently realized my math is a little off. I don’t take into consideration that the last time I eat something is usually around 8:30 p.m. the night before. So, I’m actually fasting for nearly 20 hours. But that’s a softer issue.
You may be asking, “Why are you fasting? Why so long?”
There are a few reasons, but I’ll drop the main two.
1). To get closer to the Lord and hopefully hear His voice in my prayers. (I mean, if He fasted for 40 days and 40 nights, I figured the least I could do is five.)
2). To gain deeper control of my flesh and my mind.
During these 17-18 hours of fasting, some of my days look like this: I work around food all day; I hit a gym session; I come home and go straight to writing or recording (visual or audio); I help my siblings with their homework; I get them showered up and start cooking while they are in the shower; I serve them their food; I jump in the shower myself, come back to the kitchen, get my food and finish it faster than the both of them.
On these particular days, I wake up at 4:30 a.m. and don’t eat until 6:30 p.m. And then I do it all over again the next day.
You see, the average person doesn’t have a lot of discipline, not because they can’t have it, but because they don’t “feel like it.” And when you don’t feel like doing something, every excuse in the book becomes acceptable.
But the truth is, you won’t always feel like doing certain things.
If you want to get to another level in your life, you can’t always focus on how you feel. There are going to be some days when you just have to grind it out and get the task done.
I remember training in Phoenix, and some days it would be so hot it didn’t make sense. Not the type of heat that’s refreshing. It was the type of heat that makes you question why you decided to live in this oven.
We would be doing block starts, and we would all false start after two seconds. Not because we weren’t listening to the starter, but because our fingers would be on fire from the lava (track).
Why am I telling you this?
Because if I did what I “felt like doing,” I wouldn’t have gone to train in that excessive heat.
However, my desire to reach my goal was stronger than how I felt. I knew if I didn’t train, running fast was not a reality.
Some days are going to suck. And you won’t always feel like doing the task in front of you.
Life happens. I get it.
But the days you don’t feel like doing what you need to do are the days you probably need to double down and do it, especially if it’s going to pay off on the back end.
Disciplining yourself isn’t the hard part.
Reminding yourself everyday why it’s important is.
Blog edited by: Chanelle Price